So I have been finding out lately that people actually do read my blog. Haha never thought they did. So, I'm nit going to vent on here anymore. Only use it for positive, encouraging things. :) like how beautiful today was!!! It was like 75 degrees today! Warmest day yet this spring :) I mowed the lawn, played outside with the kids, went ad played with Weston and Bekah all night long outside in the warm night air! :) I was in heaven :))) and I want you all to know that I really am happy being single and I think I put myself in a position where I give out the impression that I don't want a relationship. And I think I know why. There really is someone who I have always loved and I haven't found anyone, in five years, who can even come close to measuring up to him. I can't love two people at once so I guess I'll just have to wait for him and hope someday he feels the same way about me. So for now I have decided to be content and independent. I have waited five years, I can wait two more. In the mean while I am working every day to be the best person I can possibly be. :) goodnight loving readers :)

John 16:33

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shal have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be in a normal relationship where the guy was committed to me and always followed through on promises and plans. I'm not complaining. I just think it would be really super awesome if I had the opportunity to experience that. I do know of someone who fits that very discription. But he is unavailable.... Of course. No, he isn't married he is on a mission. Hah. But seriously, sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me because I have never been in a real relationship. I know plenty of guys who like me but nobody will commit to me? What Is that all about? Sorry I'm complaining. But I guess I don't need to apologize cause this is my own blog and you don't have to read it if you don't like it. But, I really am confused as to why it seems like everyone I know is in a relationship or at least has had one. Sometimes I just wonder if I am doing something that drives guys away..... But I have pa-lenty of guy friends. So I don't get it. Even all my weirdest friends seem to have an easy time finding men. Even my mom found a perfect man the second after she decided that she wanted to start dating again. I put off the vibe that I am perfectly happy being single and I am, but that doesn't mean I don't want a real relationship sometimes. Just is case anyone was confused about that.